yesterday's kenduri went well. congratulations to johanna and partner. may God bless your marriage forever ;) btw, you looked so beautiful, nana. congratulations!!

as usual, im on the next list of the eligible bachelor/ette. its like being interviewed by thousands of matchmaker! there is this one uncle, ( who i thought is smokingly hot for his age!) haha!, well he even want me to meet his 20 year old son. adoi..im not demi moore la..im not fond in boys okay ;p

anyway, as i told you, im supposed to go for a mercy project today, however since i found substitutes for it, dear prof allowed me to not to go! cayalah prof! i know i shouldnt be happy of not doing my responsibility, but this time around, is another story ;p in fact, i have to go to the hospital tomorrow, so there you go, i have no off day left!

so what is about 'bahagia' headline? well..it is because..my dear half-of-my-DNA donor which is my beloved super kind and generous daddy, gave me a shopping spree! it all started when me and my sister mumbling about our shoes which are worn out already, that we dont have nice one to wear for the kenduri.

"after kenduri we go to klcc to get you the new ones"

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

mimpi kah ini????

so not him to offer such thing unless for raya. mummy already made her disgusted look, knowing that her daughter will ''kikis'' the father till the last penny. hahaha. sorry mummy, opportunity doesnt knock your door twice. we just have to!

i havent shop for a while, so i have no idea whether its on sale or not. thankfully for nose and vincci is on sale! its a fate ;P

so i grabbed one high heels, 2 flat pumps, and one wedges. gile la bahagia!! and the weird part is, i used to have problem in getting the shoes that im desired, thanks to my big, gigantic feet! sometimes i wear size 8 or 9. depends on shoe labels. macam ronald mc donald..sigh~

however, all the shoes that i wanted have my size!! double fate!! im destined to grab them. do u ever felt the joy and fun where you get to pick the stuff you wanted without looking at the price, put it on the counter, and then ask someone to pay for you. bahagia gila kan? kesian kat daddy.. i promise will get you the bimmer in 20 years time!

so that will add to my shoe collection. actually, i dont wear heels before. 1st, cuz i think im comfortable standing at 5'8'', and 2nd, heels are predisposing factor to back and joint problems. and ouh, 3rdly, i dont wanna look taller walking beside my partner. since now that i have none, so boleh la ;p

last week i grabbed two heels, which in total now i have 7 or something. ok la tu for a start. a total wardrobe makeover baby! watch out miss Jay (of american next top model) , im gonna rock the runway!

thanks daddy. love you million!

to my dear bestest best buddy, syazana

im sorry about last night. i know its stupid, i shouldnt put u into that situation

i got carried away, yeah i know that.

therefore, i really hope that u would forgive me.

i know i was wrong, my bad..my bad..

IM SO FRIGGIN SORRY, SYA!!!!

love you babe

ps- gile la rase guilty nih!! text me, sya!!! tak baik marah lama2..nanti kene jual

yeay, i cant wait for the weekend? why so? cuz simply i need some refreshment!

saturday would be totally full, as my close cousin is getting married. yeah..this is the time where i prefer NOT to attend any wedding. you know, everyone will ask you when will be your turn, your life plan, and the worst part is, they will match their son or whoever guy out there with you. i wouldnt mind if they wanna match me with brad pitt (how i wish!), but they are referring to a guy who is already middle age, a divorcee, the "alleged" hi-five bussinessman who are so workaholic and stuff.

well then..NOT INTERESTED!

but then again, its not an option, its AN ORDER for me to attend the wedding. simple, just go there and makan, put a wide smile on your face and salam everyone..and then..kapoossh! off i go to somewhere else. good plan, eh?

so, that will leave me with sunday. i have some offers to fulfill that day:

1- to give briefing/ some teaching for circumcision (sunathon) for the UIA med students
2-to join a friend for some outdoor stuff-jungle trekking to be precised
3- to have a lunch with a green alien from the outer space
4-sleep all day

well then, option 1. i dont think im able to do it as it will occupy the whole day. so i have to pass on that.

option 2. love this idea as im already plan to bring karim along and snatch all the photos! a good relief for time like these

option 3. not sure yet cuz the green alien might have some stuff to do. but i would be fun!

option 4. the last resort. but it would be damn pathetic

then all of sudden..

i got an order from my beloved prof ikram (mims), that i need to do the MERCY programme, which i need to go to the mobile clinic of the myanmar refugee's village in Klang. and yeah.. its something that a 'no' its not an answer..

so basically, it overrides all the dilemma. but on the other hand, it might be something nice to do for the weekend after so long of being not involved with the volunteerism work.

ps-nasib baik monday cuti. green alien, jom!

so, how was it like in the paediatric ward?

well, i have to say that the environment is a bit different compared to the wards in hospital terendak. here, as they say, the "1st Class Hospital", our movement is restricted, and it is less friendly. well, maybe its still new that i need some time to get myself adapted.

and guess what? ive met my fave football player ever. the legend. the man.

i would have never thought that i could meet him!



yeah, its ZIDANE y'all!!!

cool gila kan? jangan jeles ye


this is the place where i hang out when ive got nothing to do. the place where u could be a kid again. that is anis by the way, my patient. she got so happy and play there for the last time as she is discharged that day. hehe


see that thing (in the yellow circle)? it is one of my 'weapon' to attract kids. really, all the pockets of my white coat are filled with toys. felt like a santa claus ;o


this girl are so discrete. but once she gets comfortable with you, she gets really friendly and active. she doesnt understand malay and rarely can speak english, so we communicate just by laughing and drawing things. she has the most beautiful smile ever

so there you go. being with this kids really made me feel wanna have one soon! too bad i couldnt.. sigh~

phew, last weekend was a blast. i had a getaway to PD to take my mind off things.

im supposed to attend a cousin's wedding, but it turn out that i misread the date of the wedding, which is supposed to be this coming saturday. so basically im plan-less!

coincidently a friend is having vacation in PD, so i thought, why not i join them? at least takde la nampak macam loser spending time alone in that boring house of mine!

its been a while since the last time ive been there. prolly about 10years++. i never thought the beach has improving, as in the beach side is very clean. i should have come here often! economic for budget, and its not that far. if serabut je lari ke sini, what a great idea!

well then, thanks for the great company (you know who you are). and thanks for making me fat. sigh~

i cant write much as im in a hurry. i promise will update more and more. just bear with me okay, i know you guys are all a superb readers! later!

firstly, thanks for the encouraging words (referring to the previous post). really, i appreciate it from the bottom of my heart as you're being so understanding. mucho gracias ;)

anyway, im doing fine (if ure wondering, if not, lantak-lah! ;p)

so far so good..the paeds posting has been a okay. not that great, just a o-kay. prolly its too early to judge it, but i guess things should be fine. the kids, being as brat as they could be, really testing the nerve. with them shouting, gripping, crying and all, just make me feel like..URGHH!! i do like kids, i LOVE them, but well, they are not cute anymore when they refuse to be examined you know..and plus, with the specialist at the side, things just get more haywire! im trying my best to keep my cool and fake the sweetest smile that i could. sheesh~

they dont allow cameras or phone into the ward. so i couldnt share stuff that has been going on in there. maybe the most i could do is to share some pictures of the surrounding of the hospital. we'll see about that.

about the house that im renting, GOSH ITS FRIGGIN HOT!! we have no ceiling fan, just that friggin small fan that could barely move my armpit's hair. with the already-heaty-and-warm surroundings of the putrajaya, things just get worse. did i mention the poor ventilation of the house? goodness!

im not that fussy kind of person which only can settled in an air-conditioned room (how i wish!), but i really concern about the basic comfort like the bed, the temperature and the toilet. i dont care about the kitchen or the sofa or what so ever. i only need some place that could provide me good sleep with hygienic surrounding.

and thanks for the heaty room, i havent slept since monday. my roomie said im just like a roasted pig (babi panggang). hahaha siot. seriously, i only able to get some sleep for like 2 hours everyday. im just restless!! urghh!!!


very basic stuff. still havent finished unpacking


my matress are so thin that i have to put double layer of comforter (the striped one). how i wish i have more fat on my back for some extra cushion ;p

so when i couldnt sleep, all i can do is to study (cuz there is no other option!) no tv, no internet, and im too lazy to go out. so really, the books is the only source of entertainment. pathetic am i?



noticed that weird green creature?


haha, this is my most favourite alien! he has buffed body with spiky hair, weird earlobes, braces and so green! who would that be? *winkwink*

okay, gotta go now. will be update more soon. take care!

people kept asking me..

i dont wanna make a big fuss of it actually, thats why i just kept silent

yeah, we're over

its too personal, so i wont tell why and how and when

lets just be it that way

i know, people around us keep a high hope on us to go further, but things just happen..its not our plan for it to be like this. so its up to you to say whatver u wanna say, cuz i cant stop you. but i really hope that you would understand.

we're adult now, so lets handle it the mature way. no pointing fingers, no hard feelings.

i need to move on


ps-what i had with you is real, and i never had any regret for it. so thank you for everything. i appreciate every single thing that u've done. i pray for the best for your future undertaking. hope you will find your happiness. sorry that it ended this way. sorry if i hurt you. halalkan everything okay? God bless you and your family

hey people.

today is my 1st day of paediatric posting in putrajaya hospital.

so far so good

anyway,im renting somewhere in putrajaya, which i might not have the internet access. so im only be able to update whenever i come home here in bangi.

so u guys gotta bear with me, okay?

wish me luck in handling the kids aite!